Embracing Mortality: A New Perspective on Death in American Culture

Embracing Mortality April Hodel DNP, RN, CCRN June 26, 2024 Embracing Mortality: A New Perspective on Death in American Culture Death is often viewed as a taboo subject in American culture. We avoid discussions about it, focusing instead on the pursuit of youth, longevity, and health. However, contemplating mortality can profoundly impact our lives in…

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Practical Solutions for the shit show that is American healthcare

Covid has shone a bright light on the many, many broken parts of the American healthcare system. Insiders have known this for years, but now the world knows. The following solutions will never get any play, but I assure you they would work. In 2010, the iom recommended that hospitals have 80% BSN prepared nurses…

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You can’t put your family on ecmo

panoramic photography of road between grasses and body of waters

I have spent every day since March 7th, 2020 in warrior mode. On March 6th, 2020 I did not even know I had a warrior mode. I know you are probably thinking that I am referring to Covid-19. And yes, as a nurse manager of an ICU during a pandemic, I have been very vocal…

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The Nutcracker and Nursing

    Disclaimer: This blog is not in any way represent opinions of my workplace I have seen the Nutcracker ballet about 10 times over the course of my life. There is something about all the moving parts that work together to perfectly tell a story that gets me. When watching a ballet, of course…

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PTSD for girls!

This is a hard blog for me to write but I am compelled to write it. I’m not sure why but here it is. Once when I was 10, my parents got into a fight first thing in the morning. It was a Sunday. It was December. I know it was a Sunday because I…

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Therapy and why I suck

I started therapy a month or so ago, and I am not sure starting therapy right before the holidays was such a great idea. I find myself having flash backs of things that happened when I was a kid. And periodically I feel like crying. I have been pulling my hair out. I have fairly…

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WTF is loving detachment

Loving Detachment   I never really understood the meaning of co-dependency until I started going to Alanon. I certainly never dreamed that I was co-dependent. Shockingly (sarcasm), I have been co-dependent all of my life, in every single relationship I have had. There is this thing I learned in Alanon called Detachment with Love. It…

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Comfortably Numb

About 6 months ago, I found out some dirt on someone with whom I have a hate/hate relationship. I used it to my advantage, calling this person out. By the time the day had ended, I felt ashamed of myself. I think the primary reason I felt shame is that I have higher expectations for…

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The importance of conversation with women

The Importance of Conversation, and where small statements lead my brain   Recently, a friend of mine and I started working together again – for the third time. She and I have years of history as colleagues and friends. I have always valued our conversations. She is one of those gals who can wholeheartedly disagree…

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A funny thing happens

A funny thing happens   When you first start to blend your family, it is a bizarre feeling to be with your partner and their kids, while your kids are with their mom/dad. So you try to come up with little ways to connect with your partners kids, all the while feeling like something is…

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